Addmath tuition teacher came yesterdayy .
it was cool .
i mean . i needed help .
so i sought help .
and when i find help .
i look for de best help i could get .
this is probably it .
a scholar .
wow .
and he brought with him a 50 cent pen . and a few recycled foolscap paper .
wore a simple checked t and pants . and had a small normal bag .
an indonesian . jarkatar i contemplate .
into chemical engineering .
showed me his certs .
gt 7 As for Alvls .
and was socially weak . but mentally strong .
he is not a nerd . not a geek . just someone who wants to prove himself worthy .
he lives in N.U.S campus .
and when he taught me .
i understood very clearly .
and he kept pointing out to me .
practice . practice .
addmath is all about practice .
he is an intelligient man . moulded by hardwork .
and he spoke cute english .
it was his first time teaching .
and it was suppose to be 2 hours ,
and to show that he is passionate .
he overshot 30 mins without knowing .
and he said its okie .
i came in
with new foolscaps .
g2 .
a billabong pencilbox .
my billabong wallet .
and i wore a pair of branded jeans .
a sleeveless E - Tshirt
colonge
and a 50 dollar necklace .
now that i see this .
i know .
i am truly humbled .
where material is truly nothing . but a status gauge .
he motivates me . when i look into his eyes . i see a child and innocence .
beautiful and pure .
i am once again . true .
like him like me . a child lost .
confidence is key . pride is the lock .
humility is whats behind that door .
thank you senior Andres .
for letting me into the rationale behind all this .
without u knowing it .
thank you God . for all this .
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and mr lim talked about cars and motivation .
thought it was crap .
but its kinda true actually .
life is what we make of it ..
im a formula 1 .
and i just cant find the key .
ppl already started . the fast and the furious .
and they arent in our school mihos .
they are all over singapore .
if u are taught only by whats around u . go crash yourself .
hope this time its coming good .
i am motivated . i have a great engine . im going to find my key .
infact i saw my key . know where it is .
its under my formula 1 .
now i just have to figure out how to get it out .
the course will be useless to me i think . cuz it teaches u how to be a great ferrari .
i am a great f1 .
its gnna be useless i tell u .
to me . not u .
i have a poshe a ferrari and a f1 . i have de keys to my poshe and ferrari . the cars of fun , fame and fortune .
and my f1 . the car of performance . i have it !!! im gnna get the key for all i care . thats whats important now .
now i know . ived been drivin my poshe and ferrari on the performance track . doing stunts and nice curves .
playing with my engine .. when all i have to do i just drve straight at top speed . and im nt even using the right car .
this is going to be fun .
im almost there to my key .
and there is still time. but not much left .
so near yet .
one more bit and i have it !!!
and u think ur gnna win cuz ur ahead of me .
hahahaha .
watch me mann .
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i know ur hurt cuz of me .
i know u know ur the worthed .
stop hiding and come out alrite ?
i dont want to hurt u .
i dont want to hurt anyone .
not you you you you you you you and you .
if u know what im feeling right now . i hope u do .
you will see that there is no perfection . we can get close . very close to it .
but no such things called perfection .
who de hell invented that word anyway .
if u know what i know . if u see what i see . if u feel what i feel .
if you love me show me . no point saying things subconsciously or trying to be secretive .
cuz i know . damn it . can everyone just stop hiding themselves ?!?!?!!
it really sux cuz when u read ppl . and ppl lie . and u know the truth .
and u just hate it when they lie . or just dont want to tell you how they feel .
its like i know you love me . i just wanna hear it .
well in my case . i want to see it . show me mann . SHOW ME !!!!
i dont want to be the one always making the decisions . doing the nice things . the one caring . the one who is considerate . the one always looking out for u . the one who wants to keep u warm and make u feel comfortable .
i am a human . despite all my differences . with feelings and needs .
i want all those stuff i do to ppl .
i dont request for it .
but i hope u have the initiative and the heart to give em . or even the maturity .
make some . do something for me .
all i ever wanted was you and me .
but all i can do is try .
cuz im not making the step for u . u do it .
and if u miss it . thats it . u have to wait for it another time .
the more u know me . the more u love me .
the more i know you . the more i want of u .
show me . i dont want to leave u alone . need a hug ? tell me .
i want your inner most feeling to be shown . i want to see it on the surface .
its like the radar on a hunting ship has spotted the giant squid .
u know exactly where it is .
or u have already calculated out when the next meteor shower will be .
where is it going to be . and u know exactly .
and all u ever wanted , was to see it for yourself .
so love . show me .
josh - the humbled - the warrior within - the love sick - the true friend craved
