alrito . diego is back from confusion . lets see . mr annand wants to know bout my life now , im gnna meet him tomorrow at 5 beside de fountain of blood . so what am i going to tell him u ask ??
lets see . how about . how mutherfucking screwed my family is ? how bout how my father betrayed the family . how bout telling him that my mom is in Sarawak waiting for daddy to come home once every 2 fucking months ? how bout that i suffer emotions that no one has had before . how bout knowing that i know that he's lying sometimes . how bout telling him that ive been through more shit thdn anyone in my class . how bout mommy's suicide with a bottle of poison . how bout me sittin on de edge of the 20th storey looking at how beautiful the stars are . how bout having ur family asking u to pay rental fees . how bout im really a kidd who thinks differently . how bout how proud, lazy , inconsiderate,irresponsible,and having a bad attitude ??
lets see .
hmmmm , . .
alrite i got it . ill tell him everything . and ill tell u what he hears ; my last sentence on how inconsiderate , iressponsible,lazy,arrogant and having a bad attitude .
mr annand . im starting to hate u . yes . mom called u yesterday . yes . mom cried over the phone . yes . u think u know what im going through . no . you dont .
anyway . another thing is adding alot of fuel to my fiery life . she . so she claims she loves me . or so i think . but . whats up with de messages that nite , do u really want me or not . i mean . wth is wrong with u. u say u love me and the nxt day i see u flirting with some other guy . damn u mann . i got damn wait for u . try to forget u. trying to get drunk . cindy . if u see this . its not someother girl i find outside that made me do that that nite . its far more deep and complicated thdn u think . i hate u and i love u at the same time . tell me who de hell experience that in a normal love life . i went around lookin for girls that would make me forget u . show u messages bout them and see ur reactions . so when im already starting to forget u . i somehow get to talk to u one nite . and somehow i confess everything to u . im really crazy . worst of all . ur ignoring me again . sadness is beautiful . loneliness is about one of the worst thing u can experience in life . tell me mann . whisper love into my ears . tell me u love me once again . let my arms cuddle u in . and ur head rest on me .
i want u badly now . dont break my heart again .
