okie . alrite
was sleeping after a busy day . woke by call from mum . (had ignored her for days)
i ignored her bcuz of studies . and she called to scold me on things that i dint even do .
so yeah . was surprised to hear her voice . had no choice but to talk .
she wanted to give me her credit card . and i cud spend all de money wanted .
i said no . i dont need it . although im very low now .
she flared . like she always do . framing me of things i dint do .
and i hated that . hated being misjudged , and i always stood up for what i belived in .
i will only stand down . if my believes are brokened and all my stands are shot down . but im nt stubborn .
i see ur point of view from as many point of view as possible .
and thdn i analyze them . thdn i formulate . thdn i either agree with u or shoot u back .
so i decided to shoot back . cuz it wasnt even my fault . plus she only hear her stuff from one side . biased .
sigh . i was stressed . but anyone would have shot back . it was really too unreasonable .
okie . thdn she broke down . like always . i dont blame her . she was really stressed .
plus knowing that she's stressed my aunt would give her shitty and ungrounded intel about me .
things like i went to a strip club . stole money . and wasnt studying at all .
okie lets weigh all of this three .
one . i went to a strip club . "how de hell and why the hell would i go there ?" first of all . im underage . a club already has quite a security . i think a strip club would probably have a tighter one . and oh yeah . does singapore have a strip club ??? wtf . plus the frens that i hang out with are good dudes . and im nt a bad guy . not to mention being a gentlemen . i dont do this low class stuff .
two . stole money . yes i am low on cash now . but i hate borrowing money . so why would i go against myself . and even steal . needless to say . frens reading this . u know i woulden . simple as that .
3 . wasnt studying at all . alrito .i might understand why u could come up with that . judging my performance in school . but I AM STUDYING . damnit . im preparing for de 0's . its my dream . im nt giving it up or even slackin . if u notice . i have darker circles round my eyes these days . and its de cause of AMATH !!!
alrito . see why now. but im still wrong for arguing . thats one thing .
anyway im srry mum .
she told me too bout dad's recent news .
dad has a second mistress .
dad's very happy .
2nd mistress has a house . and a few cars .bought by daddy .
dad has three new businesses now . his new club/pub . salon . and car wash centre .
all three . under his and the mistress's name .
guess what dad went around tellin ppl as well .. that he's gnna be a father soon .
oh and guess what . mum's not pregnant .
dad . u have thrown mum's value away . u broke mum . tore her apart . and neglected her .
she lived becuz of her sons .
she's strong . she is so gnna prove u wrong .
and all u ever did in my life was to send me money . is that what father's do ?
tell u what . when ur son/daughter is born . ima pay it a lil visit .
and when i grow up and live my dreams and had fought my battles .
ima send u cash every month . just like what u did to me .
but i dont know . im nt de kinda guy who likes to take revenge . but if i have to . watch out .
anyway dad . u think ur so great now huh . doing all this shit . earning so much money .
me mum and bro will leave u . and when u get old . ill see what u do .
u think those mistresses will help u ? please .
when u were locked up and raided my de CID . they dint even visit u . watching tv at home (how i know? me and mum raided de house) . and mum and me have to reschedule all our stuff just to fly all the way there to bail u out . grateful ? no .
anger lies with me now .
cuz dad . u dont know how to treat a lady .
cuz dad . u broke mummy's heart . ur wife's heart . the lady u swore to protect at the wedding ceremony .
cuz dad . u too blind .
cuz dad . life isnt all about money .
cuz dad . i only call u that becuz of biological purposes .
cuz dad . u called only once every two months . and each time it dint last more thdn 3 mins .
cuz dad . i thank you for all this u have done . it has made me a stronger person .
cuz dad . think about it . since i was born . ever got to know ur own son ?
cuz dad . u dont know how we live our lives .
cuz dad . you dont know anything about me .
cuz dad . one day you will regret this .
cuz dad . a lost son is waiting for u at home . thinking of you everytime .
anger is a powerful tool . use it well josh .
and mum . im sorry . i love u so much . everything u have done . its all for us . its all for us . please take care of yourself . when my war is over . lets leave the battlefield together alrite ?we've been through much more thdn this . lets stay strong . like we always did .
