my journey in life .
is beautiful .
everything that happened .
its for a reason .
even when some sayy that theres no reason for love ?
i ought to sought .
i belived some of u had crossed paths with me before .
letting u take a ride in my life . seeing things through my eyes .
and u know . that i know things that ppl dont . and that i am true .
that its lies i hate . but im the lie living so that some can hide in my dark shadows .
everything i have done was for a good cause .
never to harm .
sometimes ppl have to learn things the hard wayy .
so lead them there . and they shall learn .
i ponder at times when i wonder why am i on earth for .
i cant really find reasons for that .
but changing lives of people . showing them the light in darkness .
watching . observing . deciphering . creating . playing .
and i see smiles . beautiful smiles . smiles that are real and from the heart .
not lies that u see on tv . they are beautiful smiles . but unreal .
well sometimes lies are for good causes . i belived ived used them .
not on anyone . but myself . i lie to myself . that nothing is bad . that my life is what i make of it .
cuz i know . that at times . somethings cannot really be changed .
for example for the moment . time . can u change time . back and forth ?
what is time ?
whyy do we remember the things we do remember ?
and whyy does our mind be able to predict a happenin .
lies . its a form of belive . a want or made of a form of belive .
and beliefs are beliefs . waiting to be made a fact . by ur very own hands .
if fate exists .
why are we here for ??
to live the story that has already been written ?
if so . who has the book ?
doesnt matter who has it . who wrote it is a better question .
are we really as planned ? thdn what is the purpose of living . tell me . to live out ur fate ?
i personally think not .
i think we are out here to write our own stories .
we are the writers of our lives .
and everything else that happens . are just natural or random .
and its not what happens to us . its our reaction to what happens to us that makes the outcome . that makes what will really happen to us .
another day . another day of outcomes . that u have made .
sometimes i just want to close my eyes .
i dont wish to see the sadness in the world .
i dont wish to see the lies .
but sometimes i see things that are beautiful . and i appreciate that . i Thank myself for opening them .
i am here for a purpose .
and i see that my friends around me are different from the world as well .
influenced by me ? cuz i cross their paths too many times ?
i dont want to belive that . they are special ppl . and here for a reason too .
i used to think so . but now i know . no man's really an island .
u may know alot . but that person may just know a few . but some of them are what u not know of .
so ived learnt humility .
ived also learnt ego and confidence .
well for both . there is the good the bad and the fun .
release the bad and ur fine .
good and fun ego are good and fun .
bad humility ? yes they exist .
when ur so humble . u become complacent .
when u dont wish to take a stand . short changing urself unconsciously . thats bad humility .
well well well .
now's life again .
my prelims are nearing .
and frankly speaking . dont care what the grades turn out to be .
i know ived been stressed and muddled about the past weeks .
haven been really studying . but im still in schedule .
so this 2 days . i will do my best . also during the prelims . ill do my best .
i may have regrets . but i dont think so . seeing smiles is better thdn prelim grades .
of cuz if i do well ill see more smiles .
still . quality over quantity yeahh ?
anyway . life as i know it . will be a fruitful journey for me .
and i have tickets to my ride .
feel free to hop on anytime .
i love u ppl .
if u want me .
come get me .
dont leave me waiting
anymore .
josh - the mastermind
