tired .
of family .
of friends .
of love .
of judgements .
of offering my hand .
of vengence .
of masks .
of ur sorrow .
of seeing the unknown .
of deciphering .
of creativity .
of honour .
of bloodshed .
of being a gentlemen .
of keeping secrets .
of lying for u .
of motivation .
of standing alone .
of solitude .
of fun .
of smiles .
of colours .
of words .
of expectations .
of encouragements .
of breaking the impossible .
of letting myself be pushed .
of waiting .
of that disappointment in ur eyes .
of proving you wrong .
of lies .
of respect .
of searching .
of getting out .
of pain .
of healing .
of being the one .
of walls .
of darkness .
of light .
of everything .
cant i fall ?
think what you want .
i have nothing left in me .
there's nobody left .
except myself .
this world is killing me .
is money all that matters ?
are face values all that everyone cares for ?
are grades that important to your life ?
are you fighting for something ?
something worthed fighting for ?
your life consist expectations .
of other's expectations ?
are you gnna lay on your death bed and ask .
what have i done in my life ?
i hate all of you .
you are nothing but robots .
whats all this massive fortifications of your castle ?
when there's nothing to conquer inside ?
when the world is against me .
are you going to doubt me too ?
a sheep , a follower .
thats what you are .
do you not see the sorrows and beauty of this world ?
is that why you aimlessly fight for nothing ?
blinded by yourself .
binded by yourself .
betrayed by yourself .
whats love to you ?
to see my reactions to your coldness ?
fun ?
how many times have i told myself ?
how long will it take before i see your face ?
when will this break in my heart be mended ?
all thats left alone by me .
i cant stay here anymore .
your secret angel .
has fallen .
do you not see the masks ?
do you not hear the lies ?
do you not feel the pain ?
do you not taste the bitterness ?
do you not breathe deeply ?
i dont .
i see the person behind the mask .
i hear the truth behind the lies .
i feel the well being thats yet to come .
i taste the sweetest freedom .
i breathe life .
and ived fallen .
on my kness .
in despair .
my wings broken .
promising to fly again .
would you not console me ?
would you not give me ,
the peace in mind that i generously gave ?
demented .
all thats left alone but me .
i am not afraid .
in prayer , my soul cries for deliverance .
get lost .
i want to walk alone .
without this world .
angels surround me .
i need your shield .
i need your sword .
defend me from this world .
spread your wings and embrace me .
unlike any human beings .
God , in you i trust .
im coming back Lord .
open the gates , let the angels sing .
guide me home .
take me from this fall .
away from this world .
in your arms i feel your warmth .
wiping away my tears gently .
pass me your shield , grant me the power and strength .
to shed my blood in the battlefield once again .
i love you God , Christ and the Holy spirit . My friends . My Holy love .
i love you Angels . My Guardians .
i thank you for showing me the truth to this world .
i thank you for these gifts . to guide the others in life .
i thank you for always being there for me .
let me rest in the heavens for awhile .
josh - the calling of my guardian angels .
