just a boy who misses his mommy's nagging and daddy's laughter ..
i miss the days firecrackers and explosives were first off my mind ..
i miss the days dad laughed , gave that smirk while he takes tons of money out of the casino ..
and said " doesnt your dad just rule ? " .
i missed his cockyness ..
i missed mommy's embrace ..
i missed mommy's beating ..
i missed the days mommy applied medication to my wounds ..
i miss my bro ..
i missed the time we masterminded operations ..
i missed the day he planted a stink bomb under my bed ..
i missed the days we turned the house into a mess ..
i missed the days we laughed and teased each other silly ..
i missed the joy of trashing other kids working together ..
i missed the brotherhood ..
i missed diving for muscles ..
i missed the beautiful waterfall ..
i missed getting mosquito bites ..
i missed fishing with grandma ..
i missed grandma's cooking ..
i miss the times grandma cried when she sees me ..
i miss the days we went up the hills ..
i miss the sunsets ..
i miss the fresh cool breeze ..
i miss the lil chicks ..
i miss camping in the woods ..
i miss catching snakes ..
i miss hunting wild boars ..
i miss setting up traps ..
i miss catching bats ..
i miss my village ..
i miss my amigos ..
i miss my army ..
i miss my people ..
i miss the glory ..
i miss the great wars ..
i miss the adrenaline rush ..
i miss the war cry ..
i miss the bloodshed ..
i miss the feeling of bringing down what we went for ..
i miss the celebrations ..
i miss the compliments ..
i miss being there ..
i miss the Mafias ..
i miss the prestige ..
i miss the suits ..
i miss the cars ..
i miss the black ..
i miss the escort ..
i miss the labels ..
i miss the airport limos ..
i miss the day i was lost ..
i miss the people i have held up when they fell ..
i miss the people that have cried for me ..
i miss the people who are feeling hurt rite now ..
i miss the people who held on ..
i miss the people that slept in that corner ..
i miss the people that understands ..
i miss the people up there ..
i missed gravity ..
i miss her more each day ..
its dumb ..
but yes i do ..
dont ask me why ..
im sick of feelin incompetent ..
surely the day will come again ..
a whole new season of my life ..
just to let everyone know ..
i remember you ..
for life ..
surely i wont want regrets ..
surely i have not much control over people's mouth ..
for if i pass cup of pure gold dust through 10 people ..
at the end ..
will the dust remain as gold ?
even if gold was not by your hands ..
surely you remember what you recieved ..
surely i spoke the truth ..
for the cups for me were passed with no intention ..
i am sure ..
but the cups that meant me ..
fills with dirt ..
where did all the gold vanish ?
love .. life ..
when will my life end ?
and when it does ..
what will i have done myself proud ..
what is this world after ?
you know ..
people look ..
but not see ..
people took ..
and not free ..
people speak ..
but not deliver ..
people seek ..
and not quiver ..
for what they are to discover ..
isnt what they thought uncover ..
know the truth ..
know the faithful ..
know the righteous ..
for what is a man greatness
if all is vainity ..
if all of not purpose ..
if all of not dreams ..
if all of not fire ..
if all of not will ..
For people cry ..
but not know why ..
Then people die ..
asking why ..
Seek The Values Of The Eternal ..
The Unfadable ..
For One day ..
You Will Leave This World a Phantom ..
A Memory ..
I rather take the pain thdn have caused anyone hurt ..
I rather feel Pain thdn nothing for you ..
I hate this weakness ..
as i endlessly hold a torch in the snowy night ..
Perhaps when one day we wont ever meet again ..
Perhaps you would forget me ..
For the times i tried ..
You know something ?
I hate regrets ..
But ill have to leave that to you ..
Love is something i want naturally ..
Not a Pursuit out of reckless sympathy ..
Ill be Here Always ..
J0sH - Still Missing You
