Tears of the sun .
i begin to wonder again what life is all about .
and the decision to skip ns isnt that now .
i ask myself what for .
ived learnt a hell lot of stuff in ncc .
im the best soldier there .
i realize everything was bullshit in ncc .
they promote u according to your grades .
reason i couldn make it ? grades .
reason i couldn command de parade ? Malaysian .
but what did i contribute ? pretty much and more .
i dont deny that i had stand down this year .
wasnt that hyped into ncc for de past few months .
but thinking back .
teamwork , leadership , endurance , experiences that not much people have in life .
do u know how much runs through your mind to kayak for 3 days around singapore ?
or even bite in the jungles of Brunei and learn training commando style ?
all this beautiful memories . Will never be forgotten .
leave no men behind . fight with everything you've got . one for all , all for one .
many values i hold dear .
i belive . in ns , i will rule .
cuz nobody recognizes this in ncc .
they probably give u a badge .
Even now , so what if i have the most number of and most prestigious badges ?
so what if you dont promote me ?
1st sergent is good enough , 2 ranks below de top .
plus i dont really care bout de rank .
ive learnt much more thdn any of de staff and master sergents .
i bet in ns things go much more differently .
i bet i will learn more to life .
i came to think why i wanted to skip ns for ?
cuz i wanted more time to make a million before 27 ?
not that im a materialist ,
Money that i earn is more like a point system in a game to me .
Nv a tool to flaunt or anything like that .
but one thing is for me . Quality .
i like Quality , and that sorta comes hand in hand with money in this world .
but Quality aint all about a 54" lcd tv or a 5 carat diamond ring .
its about experiences as well .
i belive this quest for knowledge and making it b4 27 is gnna make me live a life more thrilling .
thdn , i really wished i had more lives .
there's so many things i wanna experience and become .
but for me , looks like unless i live life again ,
i can nv have the best of ALL worlds .
multi-billionaire businessmen , pilot , rock star , sniper , doctor , life coach , DJ , artist , help the ppl in Africa , commoner and it will add .
you lose the essence of fully becoming one and seeing things in the perspective when u fluctuate across many .
but thdn again , its not impossible .
be a pilot , write some songs , become a rockstar ( which makes u an artist ) , use the money u earn to start a business , make it big , at the mean time learn to be DJ , learn biology be a doctor , and buy a sniper or maybe draw some cool stuffs . after that u can use your life story to motivate and empower other people . after i that im gnna go to africa and help out and donate a hell lot of money to charity and help those poor people . oh and what about commoner ? sighh , guess i cant be a commoner thdn . how saddening .
i dont want to die !!
i want to live life again and again and again .
till i get tired of it and die .
and when i die
well thdn again . People's thinking change from time to time .
no point thinking so far .
so many people are lost in their lives .
they dont know who they are . dont care why they are on earth for .
study for de sake of studying , earn money just to pay bills .
robots ! one day the system will fall mann .
right . no point thinking so far .
my only Goal now is O's .
and as long as i put in my best , i wont have any regrets .
besides , im a genius rite ?
i dont care if the world is against me .
all that matters are the words that are constructive .
the inferno inside .
its has to come out .
forget doubt . choose to fly .
and the hearts in de fridge are melting in my mouth .
well , so's mine .
life is hectic now .
maybe im being too hard on myself .
but i have to do it .
do u see me when im invisible ?
josh - the Questions .
