lunes, marzo 26, 2007
a sense of implement .
lonliness .
if there's anyone .
anyone out there .
to save me .
will you .
a love .
there so to hold me .
where are you .
ived lived life .
saved some .
where are you .
will you .
there are times .
when my heart crushes .
and i dont know who i am anymore .
am i to hate .
am i to fall .
the warrior within's fate .
the warrior within's all .
who am i .
where are you .
will you .
i feel this deep nostalgia .
like im weak again .
its been long .
too long .
even a day takes forever .
like a minute inferno .
despise . a minute's sense .
lovely ?
maybe .
i know de reason .
where .
i feel this deep belonging .
of somewhere lost .
it wasnt just a dream .
may i .
will you .
where are you .
do i .
i do , i really really do .
7:01 p. m.
sábado, marzo 24, 2007
YO !!
haha .
Couple of days ago was de CCA day .
Went like everywhere .
checked out de new media arts booth .
way cool stuff .
theres like 5 units in new media arts .
FPU (flim production unit)
IBCS tv + IBCS radio (innova broadcasting station)
Innovation Technology
Photography
im in for de IBCS and FPU .
cuz they teach DJing Music production and composing .
hell yeah .
yeahh . cool stuff huh .
joined NMA !!!
heh , at de same time ,
joined musicians club too .
they told me they need me .
haha . so i was first name on their list .
alrite amigos . your new band member is here .
Oh , and i keep bumping into leslie .
garhh , eh girl , dye back ur hair black mann .
u make diego jealous .
haha , and she keeps asking me to join cheer !!!
Goddd ... haha .
so she like pulled me there .
alrite , gt pulled there . literally .
haha . right .
and when i reached there .
cheryl and may like saw me !!
die .
" JOSH !!!! JOIN CHEER !!! "
" JOIN JOIN JOIN JOIN JOIN JOIN JOIN JOIN JOIN JOIN !!! "
" JOIN X100 "
Leslie like went in frnt of me and wrote her name .
haha . and thdn Cheer captain called me .
idiot .
thdn cheryl to prevent me from running away was like putting her arms on my shoulder .
and they were like " CMON ..... "
im like " Do i seriously look like a cheerdude to ya !?!? "
" We NEED guys like u "
" U gt Cheer Body "
" Yeah . You do "
Joshe : *speechless*
May : * writes my name on list*
thdn i was invited for a practice for de nxt nxt thursday .
great . now im in cheer .
haha .
right . and thdn i was like .
Where's Leslie ?
Garhh .
Run away again .
We suppose to go home together rem !?!?!
thdn i thought .
she seemed kinda awkward at de cheer sign up just now .
but nvm .. gnna go find her .
found her at de gym .
she's signing up .
haha . and thdn that gym dude gt me in too .
cuz i told him im training under de book ten .
he said its slack cca , just come and train ,
while ya do , look after de gym , thats all .
right . thdn Leslie was like pulling the bar .
she seems tired la .
haha .
left with her and me in de gym .
thdn she was like she rather join gym thdn cheer .
and i was like whyy ?
thdn she told me de ladies in cheer has some conflict with her .
that they would always leave her alone during convos and stuff .
thdn she asked , dint ya saw just now ?
*rapid thoughts*
"yeahh . "
thd i told her to join de guys to have fun .
heh , she smiled .
later she went to find her friends and i went to de musicians club .
they were playing avril's "keep holding on" .
as i listened .
*thoughts*
i dont know if i shud accept it as a compliment ?
cuz i dont know if what they did was right .
but i dont know . u guys rock , i dont want to choose .
Soccer Match against CJ and IJ was a tie .
with more ball possession on IJ and Near Misses from Ij too .
haha , IJ rocks .
Sat which is today .
went to de cheerleading competition at PS .
Gosh , Theres Some Hot Stuff there .
RIGHT . MOVE ON JOSH .
haha , so May and Cheryl saw me and waved !!
thdn Cheryl came over and told me just to watch their slot and go .
cuz they wont win anything .
and i was like " WHY ?!?! "
" cuz we wont . *we're just here to participate face* "
i was like " WHY ?!?! "
haha , alrite . as u wish .
and soon gt to see the big schools performed .
some of em dint really perfected it , some fell .
some screwed up some parts .
well , IJ just dint perfect one part .
though their stunts were less impressive .
but they landed it .
unlike de large schools , full of huge stunts .
but some werent landed , some fell .
haha , just after IJ's slot de Mc asked how long has IJC been around ?
and it was answered 3yrs . haha .
so i thought . IJC can already soar so far in just 3 yrs .
give it another 2 . and it will be time to trash . haha .
so i dint went off as may told me to .
stayed for de results .
expecting something good .
haha, guess what .
IJ GT 3RD !!!!
WHOO !!!
Does That ROCK or WHAT !!!
IJ was like JUMPING and CHEERING !!!
HAPPY !!!
haha , thdn afterwards Cheryl spotted me .
came over . dunno wanna give me hug or what .
too happy already , so i offered a hand shake .
and thdn may saw me .
no time to hestitate to give her a handshake .
she just like hugged me .
IJ ROCKS !!!!
left round 5 .
went to de Somerset Skatepark to Meet My Friends .
To Join de Fun in " Da Sho' Case 3 "
Rap , Breakdance and street dance competition .
Hell yeah FUN !!!
Gosh , aint updating de details on it .
just know that u missed out A HELL LOAD OF FUN .
dint know de Singapore Street Ppl would be like that .
hell yeahh .
Have Yet to Study for Bio and Econs .
Garh , i know i dont have to . but its my own target .
have to do it .
ived gt to reach de stars , no matter what .
and im still not okay .
everyday's a war within to rid of u in my mind .
I dont think she knows de word fun . at all .
thats alrite . nxt entire week's de camp .
motivational talks / stay over at changi camp .
going off to sea and much more activities .
and guess what . im grp leader .
Good . I gt 1 week to Pump up my Spirits .
1 week to refocus .
1 week to forget .
1 week to unfalter .
1 week to get rid of de thoughts of her .
nevertheless , i know .
if its fate . we will meet again .
if its not . i thank you .
My Heart's nt beating correctly .
10:28 p. m.
martes, marzo 20, 2007
Ij was R Fun Today .
My ClassMates !!
Hell yeahh !!
=]
Oh , Gt To Know Cheryl from im nt stupid (selena)
Had lunch with Together with her and ClassMates .
Haha . Awesome Ppl .
They Are Pretty Inquisitive Bout Me From a Tribal Bloodline .
Haha . " OH !! Can YOU DO THE RAIN DANCE ??!?!?!"
" DONT EAT ME !!!"
and they asked tonnes of questions !!
haha
felt like i was interviewed on tv mann .
but it was hell fun .
My Mood is Low today .. had too much to think .
though i made gd impression .
but i still think i cud do better . much better .
cuz of my heart . ived let me down .
who cares . life still rocks .
Saw a Girl That Looked Exactly Like Sharifah in IJ .
Shit .
When will this torture end baby ?
De Heavens . This Aint Fun .
Id Pray ..
But Im Dead Both Ways .
Well . At least Its not her .
Or is She ?
So I tried .
at least made her have a good time .
just like old times = j
was being spontaneous de whole time .
gt de ppl around me all laughing .
haha .
cuz she was sitting right behind me .
i had to . sorry .
Sorry baby .. i missed u too much .
11:18 p. m.
lunes, marzo 19, 2007
Talk to me .
Please .
Cuz this aint the way its supposed to be .
i have 2 days to make the decision .
i cant stay in ij for long if im gg pj .
My heart makes sense .
My mind beats .
all that seriously matter are just your thoughts bout it .
and im nt even sure if i could talk to u .
cuz u might get the wrong idea .
this is the most retarded shit ived ever been in .
and she's the dumbest smart person ived ever met .
talk to me u moron . i need to kick ur ass .
9:45 p. m.
Hey girl, what is everythin u wanted in a man ?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong
Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?
Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...
Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong
9:24 p. m.
martes, marzo 13, 2007
HEYY !!!
Supp ppl .
me arrepiento for the evanescence .
Right , Worked .
Sold 10+ k worth of goods in 4days .
$$$ =]
A Projector Caught My Eye .
Coming in Late April .
Plus Full Sound System .. Hell YEaHH .
Have Been Foolin Arnd with de Bmx .
Was Constantly at de *skatepark* at teck whye .
Learnt to come down de half pipe .
Learning to jump off it .
Twisted My Wrist . Jacked my backbone . Heads a lil wrecked .
Alls Well , Im All healed in no time .
Haha . Realize that something is missing at plaza ?
well something is to be missing again at fajar . two .
=] hehehe .
FY ! faster come back lar .
24th this month .
Alrito .
Have Been Posted to ij .
Went for appeal for both ac and pj .
for ac there were 500+++ applicants .
so they cant interview . everythin is based on a report .
so pj i was interview by de Principal .
Well , presented my case .
and mark down each and every on of my qualities .
things ived done , planned , worked out etc etc and records .
personality , they way u present yourself . important .
in the end , Mrs Tan was rather impressed .
She was Nodding all de while . =]
Rather too amazed with de difference from prelims .
so she has no prob with my catch up =]
Alls Done .
all i need to do to get into pj is get de form of transfer to ij Principal .
Get de signature for de letter of acknowledgement for my transfer .
Thdn go back to pj and sumit it .
and suddenly something hit my mind .
I dont know . seriously .
all my friends wanting me to stay .
Heard im a Legend or somethin .
Haha .. Its Funny , Really .
IJ rocks .
Its totally my enviroment .
the Principal , a Top of de chart in MOE .
was Given Power . To Choose and Hand Pick ANY teachers from any school .
For the Formation of IJC .
A Whole New Way Of Learning . Where Everything Is Possible .
Teachers from Rj Vj Hj Acj And Special Teachers from each school are here .
Teachers Who were once Entrepreneurs ,Farming 200k for an Organisation .
Teachers who were scholars , olympic champions and stars , dj's etc .
Its Way Cool .
Miss Mal Mr Ng Mrs Ramesh Are in too .
Alls Too Lovely .
They Have A Music Studio , A Dance Studio and many Other Facs .
Like de Swimming Pool in de Future .
De School Looks Awesome . Has a Lil Of a Skate Park Theme .
And Looks Like a Nice College at the same time .
Their First Batch Grads . 90% Qualifications .
No school's first badge has EVER done that .
School's Philosophy's Pretty Much "Impossible Is Nothing"
School's Song Composed By Dick Lee . Sounds Great .
Went for a few Lessons in Pj and Ij .
IJ Lecturers Rock . Funny and Comprehensive .
PJ's Lect's Rather Dull . But No Doubt de Teachers will Help Out anytime .
Programmes Like Pursuit of Passion ,
Whereby u Get Support for Reaching Your Dreams .
Whether its being a businessman , doctor , dj .
Your Back is Covered and the path's shining right ahead .
Their CCA's Over 30 plus variety .
And Many already winning and owning competitons .
beating schools like ac and vj .
and thats only their first badge .
They Have A College Media , Where Broadcastings are done all the time .
Dj's , News Reporters , Musicians . All Around .
Under de Cca New Media Arts , IJ's The First Ever Media School .
Designed for the 21's Century .
And i Get A Cert After That .
Our School's Main theme are followed After Greek Gods and Stars .
Down to our OGs group name .
Innovians Rock .
If Ur interested , There's More at
http://www.innovajc.moe.edu.sg/And Im already starting to get known .
All This , But Where's My heart .
im still deciding .
I nv knew the Falter .
6:42 p. m.
